Certain things in life:
Trying to be friends with an Ex never works.
Death
Lending money to friends.
The latter is a bitch. It is quite amazing how a friendship can be totally twisted and warped because of it. Right now I am experiencing this problem. I should know by now not to lend money to friends. My mother did it with her trusted friends and never got burnt by it. Me on the other hand, lending money out has become a black hole with regards to return. I feel like a creditor instead of a friend. I don't talk to the person outside of asking about when they are going to pay me back. Otherwise I can feel my blood pressure rise with every word out of their mouth and dollar spent.
Now you would think I would learn to not stick my finger in the light socket. But no, I punish myself and become the doormat again. No more. It is sad to become jaded from this but I really dislike losing a friend over something like this. So they begin the drift from friend to acquaintance to.... well someone you would rather not come across in a mall or a coffee shop.
So... Death... too tough a subject to hit on a Saturday night. Maybe some other night when I got Tom Waits playing and find the bottom of a bottle of wine.
-R
